Hello,
This is a collection of messages with no known meaning.
A crate of thoughts without a home.
A reflection on things in life that are confusing.
Some shot of hope for the glum.
A dose of the semi-conscious that I’m still parsing.
A message of darkness and its brightening.
The roots of things yet to come.
And a thread of relation for someone.
Exoxoh,
Trevor
Coasting on this midnight breeze
A gently burning air
Away the light to darkness fell
From wherever it might hail
The wind wound up and whisked away
All my tepid thoughts
But soon enough light would dawn
Again
On this glossy permafrost
The trees stuck out and I will say
There’s beauty in both
The quelling hush of winter
And the humming haze of spring
Some things in life are just uncertain
They stand in shadows
Or behind a curtain
Some things in life you are forbidden
Maybe those things change
Maybe they stay hidden
Some things in life you just have to take!
Try it most gently
Or something else may break
Life is a web of things that can’t cope
With sudden changes
But there may still be hope
Just live your life one leap at a time
You’ll go where you can
With each careful climb
Row
Don’t pull any punches
Ride it out and see tomorrow
Row
Wave as you pass your foes
Watch them frown and watch them follow
Row
Strike it on your anvil
Nobody has this weapon, dear
Fly
The water falls away
You’ve got your wings, now let them steer
Why, Simon
You’ve betrayed me and all I’ve done
I’ve tried to help
If discord is what you want
Simon
If discord is what you want
You’ll have it all your life
Why, Simon
You’ve wasted yet another chance
To be your own
To stand tall and stable
Simon
To stand tall and stable
You’ll have to change some things
Why, Simon
It’s not too late to follow through
To make things right
Sometimes we all fall
Simon
Sometimes we all fall
And that is only human
You saved my life
Not once, but twice
Well isn't that nice, I thought
As I pondered another way to go
Push yourself out to sea
Some fish will bite
Some will flee
Lift your weary head
Some fish may bite
Some blood shed
Every day has a dawn
But dusk will come
Curtains drawn
And every night might fall
When sunrise comes
If at all
Sea breeze that cuts the foam
Feeble ships that take you home
Storms could waste you, that’s for sure
Come the bitter winds
So you think you can swim?
Prospects fade, now they’re all dim
Time may save you, maybe not
Come the bitter winds
Sink coldly into dark
Hear the desperate warning lark
They might find you, sinews taut
Come the bitter winds
The sea that knows you well
Every wave another swell
You’ll be left there, never found
Come the bitter winds
This life
Whether or not you chose it
Whether or not you love it
It is yours
Well now
Are you getting all you need?
Are you drafting your own deed?
Get to it
I say
Fuck those others, you know who
You can do much more for you
Live it well
So then
Tell them off or let them in
Settle down in your own skin
Easy does it
You have seen birds fly since you were born
So, every flock might look the same
Now every flower might smell alike
With springtime, after the big bloom
And with all the things you don’t notice
Well, nothing seems to ever change
If this reminds you of all the days
That you forget the sky is blue
I can cast a line for you to hold
It’s something I think you should know
So that this old life is new again
Just as it was when you were born
I’ll fashion a way for you to see
The beauty that you now ignore
And for every flock that you forgot
I’ll help you to remember it
And with every fall, I’ll pull you through
For as long as I can manage
And of all your friends, find those most true
I promise you they won’t let go
I’d just like to say one more thing, dear
It’s been on my mind for a while
It’s about you, and all of your fears
I hope you’ll listen, just the same
Sometimes you go for what you want most
But all the world, it pushes back
And it just kills you and all your strength
And things seem like they’re such a waste
If this life seems pale, you’re not alone
So here’s something to help you out
To find your way back, and live again
And see the things that make life glow
If this life seems cold, then cling to warmth!
I promise you the world will know
That you’re worth much more than these troubles
And I’ll be here for all the pain
Can you carry me away
Calmly, and cool
Still aloft and still on the move
Where it’s not too warm
And where the frost has no bite
Where there’s a quiet rush of mist all around
Not drenching but just enough
To settle like drops of dew
And where the wind reaches out
Like a gentle push of power
Jolting just enough to invigorate
And yet calm enough to nap
No, not even the clouds can glide without support
Neither can the feather nor the floret
Even the breeze which carries them needs convection
Just as the tides which need the moon
But maybe they all go along without worry
Carefree and unaware of this world and its ways
So perhaps they are weightless of burden
And careless of time and other things comorbid
Even the sounds of nature and all its music
May find themselves unheard or unappreciated
Just as all the symphonies of the Mariana Trench
Might never land on a weary diver’s ears
Still, all the universe cries out into space
In friendliness, or brazen anger, or plain curiosity
And here it arrives just outside our perception
Yet to be discovered in the radio sky
I have dropped a leaf or two
In these years; well, quite a few
And my branches have grown askew
I’ve been growing taut and keen
Giving shade, and casting green
Descendent from Paleocene
Tell me now, what do you think
Harvest me? Felled in a blink
For soaking in your thoughts of ink
You could craft me into wood
As for me? I think you should
Though I don’t really think you would
But if you do, promise me
Count my rings? My final plea
To prove wood doesn’t make the tree
A sun setting
A hurriedly fettered seaside wedding
The chosen path we walk along
The beach rocks weathering away
A slow dissolve that might dissuade
Some vine that tries the cliff
A nocturne hour
Of stars that launch away
And so night blooms in its own procession
The darkness between each humming dawn
A night fallen by the rising sun
And soon enough the next will come
Sometimes you just don’t know
You just don’t know what will happen
Well, that’s all the time, really
So why was I so surprised
So surprised when you came around
And around you came to me
I wasn’t saving a seat for you
And yet, here you sat
Here you sat just the same
All the things I've never seen
And all the things I've left between
The spaces that we'll never need
I'm captive to this staple scene
And when I wake the channel's tuned
To some foreign, far-off afternoon
Designed a life turned upside down
In a world I've never found
Should I wake or should I dream
In a rift I'm caught between
I'm spun around within a space
A race to break out of this place
Should I sleep or should I dream
Living blind to this thing
Learning not to listen well
Above or down I cannot tell
The sky wears upon its face
A willow with a broken grace
Uprooted from the stable ground
Like all around, turned upside down
And here I am awake too soon
Lying, whispering to the moon
In my dreams there is no sound
A world I should have never found
If I should dream I must return
All the things I'll never learn
And all the things I've never seen
Where have I landed, I’m not quite sure, but I am stranded
I can’t see and things aren’t so clear
Let me gather my thoughts a moment
I’ll get my bearings soon
The transmission’s not so good, I fear
I hope you get this, dear
Where are you, anyway?
You’re not here
And I wake up
The ground's not firm
When I wake up
I'll be swimming home
But don't worry
I’m sleeping now
All right
Good
Night
Exoxoh
“Preface (to Exoxoh)” was written May 6, 2016.
“Seasonal” was written April 11, 2016.
“Forbidden” was written March 11, 2016 and completed April 26, 2016.
“Row” was written March 9, 2016 and completed May 8, 2016.
“Why, Simon” was written April 11, 2016 and completed April 18, 2016.
“What Sensibility” was written April 8, 2016 and completed April 11, 2016.
“Out to Sea” was written April 5, 2016.
“Bitter Winds” was written March 11, 2016 and completed April 19, 2016.
“This Life” was written March 11, 2016.
“Every Flock” was written March 11, 2016 and completed May 8, 2016.
“Exoxoh” was written April 26, 2016 and completed May 12, 2016.
“Virga” was written May 6, 2016. This piece was originally titled “Tendrils of Rain.”
“Radio Sky” was written April 28, 2016. This piece borrows its title from an unpublished work by this author. This piece was originally titled “Careless and Weightless.”
“Rings” was written April 7, 2016 and completed May 8, 2016.
“Tonight’s Sunrise” was written April 19, 2016 and completed May 6, 2016.
“As It Did Happen” was written May 10, 2016.
“Hypnagog” was written May 3, 2009. This piece was originally titled “Untitled Poem 1.”
“All Right, Good Night” was written March 13, 2014 and completed April 8, 2016. This piece is dedicated to the family and friends of the passengers of Malaysia Airlines Flight 370.
Eighteen poems were shelved, maybe destined for another day.